I used to write posts here – https://rishikeshu.wordpress.com/ when I was a teenager. Most of them were probably borrowed thoughts and feelings shaped by novels, literature, movies, whatever felt deep at that age. I didn’t have much real experience, but it all felt very real to me at that time. Since then, I have moved to a different country, graduated, started working, had some wins, some failures, some mistakes (many lol), some regrets, some dreams that actually came true, and just….more life in general.

I thought of resuming to revisit those old feelings. I want to see if I still feel the same or if my views have changed in these 10 years. I lost access to my old blog, so created a new one. One of my favorite movies is the ‘Before’ series. This is kind of my Before series – meeting myself again after a decade and seeing what’s still there and what isn’t. I believe my views and feelings have changed, but I would like to explore more. Maybe ten years from now, I will come back and feel different all over.

Somewhere along the way, I also started feeling like life inherently might not have meaning or purpose like we often imagine. It may not be as deep. Maybe I am just high lol! I don’t know yet, I just want to explore it honestly and see where it goes.

I will probably hide behind symbolism, escapism, bit of romanticism to convey my feelings. If this interests you, you are welcome to read along!